Last night I had a dream that I woke up too late to take an international flight that I had planned

Last night I had a dream that I woke up too late to take an international flight that I had planned for months. Then I realized that I did have time, I just needed to cancel something else I had planned. But then I screwed around too much and still couldn't make the flight on time. Throughout the dream I had this nagging suspicion that I was doing all this because I didn't really want to go.

I have always sort of suspected that I don't want to travel as much as I want to want to. It's not surprising that this feeling is surfacing during this crisis, where I've been forced to stay at home for 43 days now and honestly haven't really gotten at all stir crazy.

Also dreamt last night that I randomly ran into my favorite ex. There was something sort of weird about the encounter and a little while later I saw her again and it turned out she was meeting a woman for a date. She hadn't wanted me to see that but there was no help for it. She hadn't dated women before when we dated. No idea what that one was about.