Envisioning the future has always felt to me like it's broken down between what I would actually lik

Envisioning the future has always felt to me like it's broken down between what I would actually like to do and what actually seems feasible, but I realized this morning that I actually make it more complicated than that.

I oscillate between what I'd like to do, what sounds nearly as good and what actually seems feasible. It only gets more confusing because I suspect I've often not been as ambitious as I could be. 

But more than ever I feel a pressure to go with the lowest end of feasibility, this despite the fact that I also feel like I'm running out of time to achieve what I'd actually like. 

It's all so muddled.